Not calling myself stupid, writing over the summer, and labels.

At first I thought my inability to finish pieces of writing that I start was just stupid. Now I realize that it's actually irresponsible. I do not need to apply another negative adjective to myself. I have been applying negative adjectives to myself.

I may actually be writing All the Madmen over the summer. Now that I've been at an emotional low for a while - by which I mean that my emotional capacities are low, not that I'm feeling down - I think I can effectively write it. Also, I really love some of the characters in that story, and I can describe why they are like me and why they are stupid. This is a good thing. I can't write about a character until I am capable of making fun of them. Or at least I shouldn't write about a character until I am capable of making fun of them.

I know that nobody ever comments on these blog posts, but if anyone is reading them, I have some questions. I have had some conversations with people in which I was using various "labels" (relatively rigid descriptions or terms that are correct when applied to some people and can be extremely helpful when discussing general patterns in human behavior and traits but also come with a series of further assumptions and exclude some possibilities of other traits co-existing). Some of the things I was describing were sexual/romantic orientation (specifically "asexual" and "aromantic"), mental disorders or situations, and personality types. All of these constitute as labels in some way, and some of them could be considered rigid, but they may also be necessary in understanding people.

So if anyone is actually reading this, what do you think? Does it help to describe people in these ways? (Especially with personality types; I'm honestly not sure if it's a case of removing people's individuality or a helpful tool for understanding individuals.) Does it just put people in rigid little boxes? Should people be given such a label if they don't want it? Is it ever necessary? Help me out, guys. Some of this comes up in All the Madmen, actually, and if I don't have a position on the matter while I'm writing this (which I probably won't), I'm just going to express a bunch of conflicting views in a way that makes sense (which is probably the best).

A link to Alters.

This is the webcomic I said I was going to make. Or, rather, this is the website that the webcomic is going to be on. There's hardly anything there. I would describe it, but I'd be overly negative towards it and myself at this point in my existence. So read it yourself if you want to know what's in it.


In other news, I am not doing so well creatively. I can do Alters because it's not entirely planned and there's fun degree of spontaneity. (And people are reading it and offering their feedback at the same time.) But I just don't have it in me to do actual projects. I'm creatively drained. I hate saying I'm creatively drained, but I am. And I'm going through a crisis. I hate saying I'm going through a crisis, but I am.


Cheers.

Pretentions, why I write, and webcomic links.

Question: Why do I think I'm an actual writer? Answer: Because I write stuff. It's as simple as that. Well, it's also because I have an inflated ego that makes me see practically everything I do as "official work", and the fact that I've had work published before just enhances that viewpoint, plus I want to imagine myself as being extremely productive and useful and my view of life allows writing to fit into that grand scheme of things, and I don't want to see myself as insignificant and silly. But yeah. Because I write stuff, we can go with that.


Another question, then: Why am I writing a webcomic? I mean, I'm a quote-unquote actual writer. Why am I spending my time with something that's only going to go on the internet?


I'll tell you why. Because people see webcomics. It's not just stuff for the sci-fi and speculative fans who just seek this stuff out as a hobby. I'm not making it obscure and unreachable for people (which is how it would be if I had actual pieces published). I'm making it so that I can tell people, "Hey, I have an interesting webcomicy thing now", and show them where it is online. I'm letting people find it. I'm possibly even entertaining some people and giving them something awesome to joke about with their friends. You know why I write, yes? So people can have inside jokes about my stuff. That's the highest form of compliment I can have. That and people drawing fanart of my stuff. Except I doubt many people will do that. But hey, it's worth a shot to see if I can get stuff like that. I'm trying.


So yeah. Webcomics. So people can read it and have inside jokes about it.


Also, if anyone's interested, the link to the site can be found here. Stay tuned, folks. Stay tuned.